Boredom Sucks
It's a horrible thing to say but I'm bored. I'm bored of the work I have to do, I'm bored of browsing the same shitty websites I procrastinate on, I'm bored of sitting in my room doing fuck all... and I'm bored of the people around me.
It's always confused me (okay, I'm lying... I've just thought of it now and again) how I can be bored when there's so much I could be doing; like getting drunk. In seriousness, there's so much that I could do that I just find myself doing nothing. I hate not being productive, however I'm just too stuck in my own mind to do anything. I'm busy thinking about things I, once again, could do.
I want to get out, to do something. I want to drop everything I need to do and just go do something else... something that I feel like doing. I find myself wanting to do anything other than the work I should be doing; like lying on my bed with my head hanging off the end, staring at my bookcase that is now weirdly upside-down.
If I just got all the work I need to do done, then I'd have plenty of free time to do what I want to do, right? Sounds good in theory, however the work I need to do is so tedious and boring that it makes me want to bash my head against the wall full of drawing pins. Fortunately, I also faint at the sight of blood, so I'd pass out after one good bashing.
If Boredom -- the personified version, of course -- happened to strut into the room, dressed in its beige attire and spouting nonsense about how mediocre and plain everything around it is, I'd like to stop bashing my head against the wall, replace the pins with nails and give Boredom a good seeing-to.
I keep thinking to myself, "Oh, Unstyled one, you deserve a break... a vacation or something..", however the truth is I just sit around and do fuck all as it is. A vacation from nothing really isn't much of a vacation, really. To go on holiday and sit around doing nothing, might not be the best thing for someone who is sitting around and doing nothing. I'm just bored of looking around at the same four walls.
At least writing is a temporary cure for the boredom... But now I must return to the blandness and predictability that is my current lifestyle.
June 19th @ 12:55 AM | 2042 Comments | Tags: rant, boredom | Trackback